Mmmmm

[xie_xie_xie]

Still looking for true love, our Sunshine. Doesn't seem to be finding it. Stubborn enough to keep looking, that's Justin all over, but I think our little family have all been surprised how fast he dumps one and moves on to the next. After all, I was supposed to be the one with the commitment problem, right? Which is pretty fucking funny, since he was my first, my only, and will certainly be my last. -JustVisiting, "A Matter of Time"

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Justin was staring at him and saw that there were tears in his eyes. He wanted to change the topic but he couldn’t. He had to say this. “Do me a favor?”

Brian nodded.

“If I don’t. Seriously. If something goes wrong. I need you to do this again.”

“Do what?”

“This. Love. Let someone love you.”

“Fuck you.”

“I mean it Brian.”

“So do I. Fuck you.”

“But if I’m not here.”

“Then that’s it, but you keep talking like this and I’m calling the whole fucking thing off. I’ll see you in a couple of hours. You don’t believe that, they’re not even allowed to start.”

“I know. I’ll be fine. I know that. I just need to hear you promise.”

“Then we’re going home now.”

“Brian.”

”I’m not gonna start lying to you now. You want me to promise I’ll put myself through this again. Bullshit. Once. You. So I’ll see you in a couple of hours.”

“Okay.”

“Justin.”

“Yeah?”

“I do love you. Can’t love anyone else. Don’t ask me to.” -Vamphile, "Keeping it Together"

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The responsibility we bear to each other is overwhelming. I don't think Brian and I are like regular people. I don't think we love each other like regular people do. Maybe I shouldn't say shit like that, but that's what I think.

Okay, I know I'm not the most experienced guy in the world, and Brian's more of a virgin than I am when it comes to being with someone--being with one someone. But I have Ethan to go by, and I see how other people are, and I just, sort of, know it's true. Ethan and I had regular, every-day kind of love. It was nice and steady and, God, unbelievably comforting, but it wasn't life and death. It wasn't all-consuming. We weren't something totally different and totally better for being with one another. Brian and I become something different for being together, we're so much more who we're supposed to be when we're together than when we're on our own. - Myrna, "If You Needed Me"

Comments

[jillapet.livejournal.com]

*sigh*

le beautiful...

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

It makes the world go round. :)

[justinlovesart.livejournal.com]

Yeah, well, if you put it like that...:)

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that other stuff I said was just bullshit.

[lunachickk.livejournal.com]

Are you trying to make me all mushy at work or something???

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

Why yes, that was my plan...

[roc-abs.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, this really lends credence to your ridiculous statement of not being romantic ;)

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Well.

[tammykay715.livejournal.com]

Man, Myrna and JV fic's always make me whimper *meep*

Vamphile's is one of my favorites *sigh*

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

Yeah, those two fics make me cry like a baby, and well vamph, what can I say.... I adore her.

[vlredreign.livejournal.com]

I see you quoted my favorite part of KIT. I love that passage, love it!

Each one of these makes me ache. I mean, can you imagine loving someone like that? Good lord, how would you get through your day? No wonder they're such a mess.

I don't think Brian and I are like regular people. I don't think we love each other like regular people do.

That pretty much says it all. Not like regular people. Cause when you think about it...okay, let's take another example. When Dr Dave and Brian were having it out about Michael, it occurred to me that what Dave says can easily apply to Brian and Justin.

"You're everything he thinks about, everything he knows."

Sounds about right.

We always say that Brian was so totally fucked when it comes to Justin, but why? It's simple. Brian had a plan. Justin wrecked that plan seven ways to Sunday, and now, Brian has to consider that he can't go through life without loving someone romantically as he convinced himself long ago. He constructed his life so that no one would ever be able to do that to him. Hence the one-fuck-only, no-names-exchanged policy.

He says this, and what does he do? Ask Justin what his name is, lets him stay overnight, as opposed to passing out after fucking, which is how the other tricks end up there the next morning, and then...fucks Justin again. And again. I think it's safe to say that Brian knew inside that he couldn't resist the idea of someone loving him like that. Not even Michael did, no matter what Michael thought. Michael's love was part teenage crush and part hero-worship. Justin...just fell in love. He saw the man behind the mask, and loved him anyway.

K, SUN

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

It's THE LOVE. 'nuff said.

[paddies.livejournal.com]

YES.

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

I love you.

[tazza-di-jo.livejournal.com]

Now I want to read them all again and I DON'T HAVE THE TIME!

meep

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

Yeah, and KIT is only like a million chapters long....

[silent-seas.livejournal.com]

*sniffle*

If you had also quoted chapter 1 of Risks, I'd be totally ded.

I need to go read chapters 2 and 10 of BYBR now.

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

LOL, even I don't have an ego big enough to quote my own fic.

[kylemorrison.livejournal.com]

All of those stories are in my top ten. Now I'm itching to read them again.

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

Don't forget to have lots and lots of tissue handy.

[rapunzel50.livejournal.com]

It really isn't fair to do this to me first thing in the morning!
Ahhhhh the love, I feel sad and happy all at the same time, looks like I will be putting these on memory stick for covert reading at work today!!!
Thanks a million :)

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

LOL, you're welcome a million. ;)

[testdog65.livejournal.com]

Re-reading these passages just about killed me dead. Each of these authors has so deftly illustrated the intensity of the love that is B/J. Sniffle… now I’m all weepy.

~Ellen

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

I re-read "Matter of Time" last night and cried like a two year old with a broken dolly.

[navee.livejournal.com]

*gasp*

i haven't read that first one yet :(
...scurries off to read....

thx for brightening up my monday!

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

I LOVE that story, even though normally I don't like "reunion fics." But I love this one. Hope you do too!

Ice Queen...remember...

[firehead30.livejournal.com]

I am supposed to be an Ice Queen. Believe it or not Myrna's fic does little for me. BUT THEN YOU QUOTED vamphile Keeping It Together So I have little to say to you but this
I was lying flat out, my face buried in the pillow. I pulled the phone close to my ear again, and sighed.

“Hey.”

“Hey.”

“I hate this part.”

He was quiet for a second. “Me, too.”

“I wish you were here.” I wanted him to hold me.

“Me, too.”

I sighed again, and scooted to the edge of the bed and picked up my t-shirt, and wiped my hand with it. I shifted the phone to my other hand, and wrapped my arm around myself, tucking my hand under my cheek. I could feel my hair brush against the back of my fingers.

“When I was here before, when I was living here, I couldn’t sleep a lot of nights. It was really hot, and I missed you, and I’d lie there sometimes and pretend you were holding me.”

I stopped talking for a minute, because I suddenly felt my throat close up and my eyes and nose start to burn. Brian didn’t say anything, but I could hear him breathing softly.

“Sometimes I’d touch my hair and pretend it was you touching it.” I probably shouldn’t have told him that.

There was a long silence on the other end, and I pulled back the phone to make sure the call hadn’t disconnected.

He sounded pretty normal. “Did it help?”

I shrugged. “Yeah.”

Another long silence. God, I hated the fucking phone.

“I used to pretend, too.”

I felt that burning in my nose again, but I smiled, too. “Yeah? You missed me?”

“Whenever you were gone, Justin, I missed you.”

I rolled back onto my stomach, and rested my forehead on my arm. “Fuck.”

“Hey… don’t cry.”

“I’m not.”

Neither one of us talked for a while. Then Brian sighed. “We should go to sleep.”

“Yeah.”

There was another silence, and then I heard him give a sort of huff.

“Have I mentioned how much I hate the phone?”

I laughed. “Once or twice.”

“Later.”

“Later.”
That's what you get.

Re: Ice Queen...remember...

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

"Whenever you were gone Justin, I missed you",,like Guh!!!! OMG how sad is that, still crying, thinking about this just makes me cry, gotta love them guys, thanks for this hopefully we'll always be getting "it",,have a great day.

[my2cats.livejournal.com]

OMG..."weeps"
Those fictions hits you right in the heart.
Yours do that to me too.

[intensefemme.livejournal.com]

*sigh*
You are SO freaking me out.
First I'm covered with chills, goose flesh.
Then, I feel my throat is blocked, like choked up.
Then my nose, it starts to sniffle a little.
And now, I have full on beautiful tears flowing.

Thank you dear Xie, for the loviliest captured words by our most treasured authors.

I love you. xoxoxoxoxo

transcending

[firehead30.livejournal.com]

And now, I have full on beautiful tears flowing.

Isn't it amazing how the love keeps us connected, reminds us to have faith, and wraps us in contentment even when it makes us cry.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_alicesprings/]

I LOVE YOU SO HARD XIE.

[shadownyc.livejournal.com]

I am a total weepy woman after reading these three pieces of some of the finest fics. The love between B/J is so powerful that it still chokes me up just thinking about the passion.

[shadownyc.livejournal.com]

I am a total weepy woman after reading these three pieces of some of the finest fics. The love between B/J is so powerful that it still chokes me up just thinking about the passion.

it is always love to us

[firehead30.livejournal.com]

Passion, love, commitment all revealed to us again and again through the talents of our generous and amazing writers.

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

Hey there,that scene of Vamps from KIT, is probably one of my fav "Vamphile" moments ever. I cried when I read it then & it still makes me cry now, so Justin & so very much Brian, just love the love between them. And Myrna!!! wow after Vamps told me to read "If You Needed Me" lifes never been the same LOL, such wonderful writing, you could "feel" it, the love between them. How lucky we all are to have such talented & dedicated B/J fans, thank God for QaF & B/J.

[risa7.livejournal.com]

Now I have to go to Ikea all puffy-eyed. It's totally worth it :D

[epicallytired.livejournal.com]

because it is truly all about the love. and i love that you quoted my stuff that really, that fic, i swear i kinda stole some of it from "if you needed me" i tried not to...but justin and brain surgery, there's some stuff that's just gonna overlap, right?

guh. THE LOVE

[flashfly.livejournal.com]

I haven't read Myrna's fics in a long time. I remember being absolutely riveted.

BTW, I read Framed a couple of nights ago. The car was genius. My favorite scene was Justin at the office - what a cocky little fucker. :)

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

I know you posted this before we met, but I was a little behind replying to comments... so, how's the love these days????

[budboi.livejournal.com]

Yeah, thats what I'll do while waiting for you to post...commit these to the hard disk.
Now enough shenanegans...on with the update to risks.(please & thank you)
Bud