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Oh, woe woe the pain of 219. Here. Please hold me tight.
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xie_xie_xie - Marathon of Pain: 219
17 September 2007 @ 04:07 pm
Marathon of Pain: 219
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epicallytired.livejournal.com on September 18th, 2007 02:27 am (UTC)okay, i was going to be glib and just blow this off, but I can't. You're completely entitled to your opinion. Now, that said, you're wrong.
Sure there were a lot of things that Brian did wrong, The hustler was tasteless and destroying the art work was petty, but it doesn't equal being two faced and immature and hurting someone that didn't deserve to be hurt. A man and tried over and over again to make room for Justin. A man that saw Justin through the toughest moment of his life and almost got him through the other side. A man that changed all his rules for a boy that wasn't aware enough to get it.
i'll ignore the fact that this seems a lot like projecting to me and just say that neither Brian NOR Justin deserved to be hurt. Brian tried, yes, so did Justin, but lets remember a few things. Brian was not actually the one hit with a bat, put in a coma, left alone in the hospital without so much as a single visit from the only person who might have some idea of what he was going through, released to find that the one thing that really defined him, his art, was inalterably and permanatly changed.
also, Justin's been having nightmares EVERY NIGHT, so he's sleep deprived.
Was Justin right and good and perfect? no? was Brian? no. Brian knew how to communicate with Justin and then he hit a wall, he had no more to give, which I get, and don't blame him for, but the reality is that they both did their share of pain infliction and management.
it's not about "oh, poor justin, Brian got him a hustler." it's about the fact that justin, the strong, persistent twat we met in season one only flickers in and out by the end of season two. He's lost, he's lost his center, and he's hurting, so when he tries, he often fails, which only proves some of what he's already feeling.
he needed things Brian couldn't provide, and he he looked for them elsewhere. Brian never told him not to. He broke the rules, and i don't say that's okay but Brian's refusal to admit that he even cared at that point was equally painful.
was their breakup inevitable? yes. Was it one specific party's fault? no.
It hurts because they're both hurt, because they're both lost, because they're both boys but Brian IS 31... at some point you have to ditch your "i had a fucked up childhood" excuse and step up. Brian does that later... but not here.
Sure there were a lot of things that Brian did wrong, The hustler was tasteless and destroying the art work was petty, but it doesn't equal being two faced and immature and hurting someone that didn't deserve to be hurt. A man and tried over and over again to make room for Justin. A man that saw Justin through the toughest moment of his life and almost got him through the other side. A man that changed all his rules for a boy that wasn't aware enough to get it.
i'll ignore the fact that this seems a lot like projecting to me and just say that neither Brian NOR Justin deserved to be hurt. Brian tried, yes, so did Justin, but lets remember a few things. Brian was not actually the one hit with a bat, put in a coma, left alone in the hospital without so much as a single visit from the only person who might have some idea of what he was going through, released to find that the one thing that really defined him, his art, was inalterably and permanatly changed.
also, Justin's been having nightmares EVERY NIGHT, so he's sleep deprived.
Was Justin right and good and perfect? no? was Brian? no. Brian knew how to communicate with Justin and then he hit a wall, he had no more to give, which I get, and don't blame him for, but the reality is that they both did their share of pain infliction and management.
it's not about "oh, poor justin, Brian got him a hustler." it's about the fact that justin, the strong, persistent twat we met in season one only flickers in and out by the end of season two. He's lost, he's lost his center, and he's hurting, so when he tries, he often fails, which only proves some of what he's already feeling.
he needed things Brian couldn't provide, and he he looked for them elsewhere. Brian never told him not to. He broke the rules, and i don't say that's okay but Brian's refusal to admit that he even cared at that point was equally painful.
was their breakup inevitable? yes. Was it one specific party's fault? no.
It hurts because they're both hurt, because they're both lost, because they're both boys but Brian IS 31... at some point you have to ditch your "i had a fucked up childhood" excuse and step up. Brian does that later... but not here.