Mmmmm

[xie_xie_xie]

Still looking for true love, our Sunshine. Doesn't seem to be finding it. Stubborn enough to keep looking, that's Justin all over, but I think our little family have all been surprised how fast he dumps one and moves on to the next. After all, I was supposed to be the one with the commitment problem, right? Which is pretty fucking funny, since he was my first, my only, and will certainly be my last. -JustVisiting, "A Matter of Time"

___________________

Justin was staring at him and saw that there were tears in his eyes. He wanted to change the topic but he couldn’t. He had to say this. “Do me a favor?”

Brian nodded.

“If I don’t. Seriously. If something goes wrong. I need you to do this again.”

“Do what?”

“This. Love. Let someone love you.”

“Fuck you.”

“I mean it Brian.”

“So do I. Fuck you.”

“But if I’m not here.”

“Then that’s it, but you keep talking like this and I’m calling the whole fucking thing off. I’ll see you in a couple of hours. You don’t believe that, they’re not even allowed to start.”

“I know. I’ll be fine. I know that. I just need to hear you promise.”

“Then we’re going home now.”

“Brian.”

”I’m not gonna start lying to you now. You want me to promise I’ll put myself through this again. Bullshit. Once. You. So I’ll see you in a couple of hours.”

“Okay.”

“Justin.”

“Yeah?”

“I do love you. Can’t love anyone else. Don’t ask me to.” -Vamphile, "Keeping it Together"

_________________________________

The responsibility we bear to each other is overwhelming. I don't think Brian and I are like regular people. I don't think we love each other like regular people do. Maybe I shouldn't say shit like that, but that's what I think.

Okay, I know I'm not the most experienced guy in the world, and Brian's more of a virgin than I am when it comes to being with someone--being with one someone. But I have Ethan to go by, and I see how other people are, and I just, sort of, know it's true. Ethan and I had regular, every-day kind of love. It was nice and steady and, God, unbelievably comforting, but it wasn't life and death. It wasn't all-consuming. We weren't something totally different and totally better for being with one another. Brian and I become something different for being together, we're so much more who we're supposed to be when we're together than when we're on our own. - Myrna, "If You Needed Me"

Comments

[vlredreign.livejournal.com]

I see you quoted my favorite part of KIT. I love that passage, love it!

Each one of these makes me ache. I mean, can you imagine loving someone like that? Good lord, how would you get through your day? No wonder they're such a mess.

I don't think Brian and I are like regular people. I don't think we love each other like regular people do.

That pretty much says it all. Not like regular people. Cause when you think about it...okay, let's take another example. When Dr Dave and Brian were having it out about Michael, it occurred to me that what Dave says can easily apply to Brian and Justin.

"You're everything he thinks about, everything he knows."

Sounds about right.

We always say that Brian was so totally fucked when it comes to Justin, but why? It's simple. Brian had a plan. Justin wrecked that plan seven ways to Sunday, and now, Brian has to consider that he can't go through life without loving someone romantically as he convinced himself long ago. He constructed his life so that no one would ever be able to do that to him. Hence the one-fuck-only, no-names-exchanged policy.

He says this, and what does he do? Ask Justin what his name is, lets him stay overnight, as opposed to passing out after fucking, which is how the other tricks end up there the next morning, and then...fucks Justin again. And again. I think it's safe to say that Brian knew inside that he couldn't resist the idea of someone loving him like that. Not even Michael did, no matter what Michael thought. Michael's love was part teenage crush and part hero-worship. Justin...just fell in love. He saw the man behind the mask, and loved him anyway.

K, SUN

[xie-xie-xie.livejournal.com]

It's THE LOVE. 'nuff said.

[vlredreign.livejournal.com]

See, now I gotta go ret-read this stuff. Cept for KIT, I'm adding punctuation and caps and stuff for your wife. So, I'm reading that one, but slower than usual.

Speaking of, I'd better hurry up and get that done, fore she kick my natch-rul born ass.