And I realized that when I started out, I wrote a chapter a week. How the fuck did I ever do that, and how can I do that again?

Well, when you started writing, those first few chapters probably had been percolating in your brain for a while, maybe even subconsciously ever since you found the show. You were free to do whatever you wanted with them, whenever the muses allowed.

Now, you've gotten to the point where you've expressed a lot of those original ideas, plus you have the self-imposed expectations of finishing chapters more quickly and conforming to your own storylines and characterizations. On top of that, you have more than one fic-verse going, in more than one canon (XWP and QAF), on more than one journal. And you know that many people read your stories and expect a lot from you, quality-wise.

Then there's the wank-and-flame side of fandom, which has come out a few times in various places, plus the LJ censorship/content debacle. Oh, and let's not forget the pet food crisis, plus whooping cough--on top of your already full work schedule.

And GreatestJournal stupidly deprived you of many of the iconized bits of Justin, while LJ refuses to give you any more. I'm just saying.

*winks* ♥